I’m wondering whether to go into my settings and block some posts or unfollow some.
I have linked to many bloggers in the two and a bit weeks I have been doing this and there are some amazing stories out there.
There are also some extremely upsetting ones too. I’m an adult and I should be able to listen to the news and read others’ experiences without taking them to myself.
But I don’t know if I can.
Sometimes I completely steer clear of news channels as they release strong emotions in me and they are not of the most pleasant kind.
I shout at the TV and tell politicians they are talking crap. Or I weep at the hurts the world inflicts on itself and others.
Neither of these two reactions really benefits anyone.
So I try to get on with my life and make an impact in my daily dealings with others and in my choices.
I have visited posts this weekend and not really done any posting myself.
And I wondered why. Especially after doing so much last weekend.
I checked my stats. I noticed that no posting means fewer visits. That makes sense. I also noticed I was commenting on quite a number of posts and some of them are ones that really drain me.
I can feel their pain. And. And I don’t know what.
I didn’t start this blog to depress myself or depress others. Apologies if I have unwittingly done so.
Whenever I have been depressed all the oomph goes out of me and I realise that reading about other people’s depressions has the same effect on me.
I am heart sorry for their hurt. But, if I keep reading them I don’t think I’ll blog again.
I can feel their depression and it takes me back to where I don’t want to be.
So what do I do?
Do I unfollow? But I don’t want them to feel that it’s because I don’t care or that I’m not listening to them. Or do I block those posts so that they do not appear on my page, ‘force’ me to read them and plunge me into darkness?
Those bloggers I am referring to have visited my pages possibly because I have posts with tags of ‘depression’,’ bullying’, ‘life’.
I visit in return.
I stay to sympathise or empathise.
I return to see how they’re doing.
I feel selfish now that I don’t want their problems.
Isn’t that awful?
Maybe it’s because, like listening to the news, I can’t do a lot from outside the picture. I can best help in everyday, moment to moment scenarios. Trickles of hurt are manageable. Oceans of sadness and hurt are overwhelming. And I don’t want to drown in their sadness.
I can’t be the only one who feels this way.
What do others do?
Block, unfollow or what?