I don’t feel …lightly, calmly,
It’s not part of a plan.
When I feel, I feel for real
That’s just the way I am.
Passion burns so brightly,
It’s who I am inside.
Others cannot comprehend,
And so I try to hide
This part of soul
That feels unwhole,
Incomplete
In being,
If asked to be, expected so,
All rational, no feeling.
Many things
Extract that part,
Imbue my senses,
Fill my heart.
A curse, I feel,
To feel for real
When others deal
In notions.
I wish to God I had
Some magic,
Self-healing ,
Non-feeling potion.
Then I could sup
Life’s awesome cup
And calmly walk away,
Replete, complete
In life that cheats,
And fight another day.